The Sun

I want to be with the Sun,
I want to run and have fun,
I can't stand the rain,
It always stays the same,
The sky cries and I do too,
It always leaves me feeling blue,
I feel so tired and weepy,
I want to stay in bed because I am sleepy,
The Sun always makes me feel good,
I would be in Sunshine everyday if I could,
The rays revive me so,
I wish it wouldn't ever go.

Mom

My mom is the bomb,
Unlike any other mom,
My mom is like no other,
I cannot express how much I love her,
She's always been my hero,
Without her approval I am zero,
There's so much I wish I could do for her,
Unfortunately I am usually a burden,
With my troubles and my woe,
How many times I just don't know,
I just hope she knows I love her so,
Without her I would not grow...

Being Happy

Writing depressive poems drives me nuts,
Writing sometimes is like spilling my guts,
Hoping as I write I am feeling good,
Hoping my words improve as my mood would,
As I read what I have written,
I am hoping I am feeling smitten,
Instead words of sadness drop from my mind,
Sometimes my poems feel none too kind,
I write what's in my heart,
Sometimes I am just hoping for some start,
Waiting for something that makes me feel happy,
That way my poems aren't sad and sappy,
I don't like to feel this icky way,
I am sure its going to leave any day,
This is the only way I can cope,
Feeling something different, feeling some hope,
Sadness is something I think we all feel,
You have to make it leave with your strong will,
Depression is something I am not fond of,
The thing that gets me going is love,
The love that I feel for my kids is always there,
It keeps me going up just one more stair,
If it wasn't for them I would probably give up,
Say forget it, I am down on my luck,
Because of them I go on every day,
I open my eyes and am glad to stay,
I may have done wrong, but with my kids I did not,
I am lucky to have them, they are all I have got,
That is not true either, or so I thought before,
That was before my family showed me they were much, much more,
More than I thought in my heart and in my mind,
They love me just as I do them in kind,
I sometimes forget about the person who is always there,
This makes me think that I am not always being fair,
He sees me do this and that and gladly takes more,
He deals with my happiness, my sorrow, my roar,
It's just in my world you always have a craving,
There's always something I long to be taking,
It's not money I crave in this world you see,
But a life full of love and a soul that will stay be.

How?

How do you begin again?
How to forget where you have been?
How to learn to like your own face?
How do you not run from place to place?
How to act like the past never happened?
How to take out the dagger that was sharpened?
How to stop the bleeding of a soul that's gone?
How to tell people what is really wrong?
How to stay busy so you don't have to think?
How to get back the years that you lost in a blink?
How to feel okay with who you really are?
How to deal with life when your name is Starr?

My Brain

I left this place for awhile,
I have nothing left, no smiles,
I don't have anything left to say,
I am wishing it would all go away,
How to go on after all of this,
Kiss it all away with just one kiss,
What was real what was not,
These questions I have, they are all I've got,
Can't believe this happened to me,
Why won't my own demons let me be,
I don't want to always feel like this,
Surely some of this I can miss,
Hit me in the head and make it all go away,
Give some evidence to prove me my way,
Cannot look for the answers I can find,
These are the questions that made me lose my mind,
It is the question that drives us, this is what they say,
It is the answers that found me that made me lose my way,
Looking at God will never be the same,
I've ended that too in my own name,
Now I am left feeling like this,
Wishing I had something left to miss.

Ignorance Is Bliss

Ignorance is Bliss,
Trust me on this,
Something took hold of me,
Driving me crazy,
Took me somewhere I didn't want to be,
Showed me things I shouldn't be able to see,
Squirrels chasing nuts,
To the Point of No Return,
Brains, Tossed, Buttered, Churned,
Reality is a scary place,
Too much too face,
Knowledge is not power,
Ignorance is the key,
This is how it is,
This is how it should be.

broken heart

I have nothing to say,
Feeling good has went away,
The breath has left my body,
Leaving me cold and unholy,
Can't believe the way I am,
Flooded my own damn,
Watched it burst into two,
Curses explode and bruise,
What is left to do?,
I must begin a new,
Piece together my heart that is broken,
No longer am I choken,
Breathe a sigh of relief,
No longer knows what she believes.

A Fairy and A Gnome In Love

In another land, in another verse,
Sits a Gnome and a Fairy waiting on a curse,
The Fairy's Father didn't approve and made it real strong,
See Fairies and Gnomes, they just didn't get along,
Their Tribes had War and their hatred was bond,
Then one day this Fairy flying high,
Saw something that just caught her eye,
A Gnome just walking along,
Bouncing a tune and singing a song,
He was not something she had seen before,
He was worth a second look and she just had to see more,
She followed him around, but he didn't know she was there,
She followed him for days throwing Pixie dust in his hair,
Finally on a beautiful day he looked up at her and she heard him say,
"Fairy, Fairy, what do you want??? You fly, you look, you sit, you haunt."
The Fairy flew away, because she was not prepared,
How did he see, this just was not fair!
How could she answer if she didn't know herself, "What did she want?"
The Gnome, he was sad, he gotten used to her you see,
Her magic, her music, her pixie dust, her beauty,
The Gnome Women is his land didn't look like her,
Their bodies, like his were covered in fur,
He waited for days, but she didn't come back,
His soul felt empty, his mood felt black,
His parents, they asked what was wrong,
Why didn't he bounce and sing his happy song,
He couldn't say anything, he didn't know why,
He just kept on moving, feeling he'd die,
Then one day she finally appeared,
She had come back and it wasn't as he feared,
She said to him, "I just want to tell you this..."
"Since I've been gone, I have been dreaming of a kiss."
He grabbed her in his arms and gave her a hug,
Which made her feel happy and they flew like a dove,
From then on they were together every day,
Their love just bloomed, it didn't go away,
Till finally both knew what they must do,
They must go to her parents high up in the Blue,
Her father, in his outrage, threw them from his place,
He told her never come back, never in his face,
"Fairies like us do not get with Gnomes!"
"So off you two go down to this Dome!"
"Love Does Not Last You Will See!"
"Love Cannot Survive An Eternity!"
"Off you two go to this land that I curse!"
"See if it lasts and this curse will reverse!"
So off they went to this land with no time,
To find one another and make love not a crime!
Through the land with no time, their souls, they go,
Hoping their love will prevail,
Taking Them From Fairy King's Place of Hell.

A Fairy And A Gnome

In Another Realm, Another Time and Place,
Sits a Fairy and a Gnome,
Hoping, Waiting, in the Dark,
Hoping, Waiting, For A Spark,
That in a Another Realm, Another Time and Place,
Sits Two More Who Sit and Wait,
One brings the Memory of the Other Awake,
Meeting Again Makes the Fairy Sweat and Shake,
The Gnome, He's Cool, He doesn't Sweat At All,
They Had No Idea Both Were On The Same Call,
To Open The Doorway of Another Time, Another Place,
The Two Must Come Together and Save The Human Race,
And Tell A Story Unlike Any Has Ever Heard,
So Much Is Rested Upon Their Written Word,
Paganism Carried Through Time To Save Our Fate,
Only Their Coming Will Open The Gate,
See In Order To Have Three You Need To Have One,
Twins, a Newborn Baby Girl and a Newborn Baby Son.
Love Travels Just Like Time,
Through The Sun, The Moon, And The Stars That Shine,
Into Two Hearts Throught Time,
Who Come Together Forever,
And End The Rapture,
And Take The Loved Into The Heavenly Gates,
Leaving The Wicked To Learn To Hope And Sit and Wait.